The battle.

Sometimes I know what I want and I know what I feel.
I could even feel quite certain at times...yet somehow it still manages
to conflict with what I think I should want and what I think I should feel.
And as the real me,with my real thoughts and my real emotions
lays somewhere, deeply involved in this battle of desires;
I, here, get helplessly lost in all the confusion.

Not knowing where I stand,
I don't even dare make a movement,
afraid that I might move in the wrong direction
too afraid to make a choice that I cannot retract
An action that Hindsight will quickly call a 'mistake'....

Funny enough - even when I am completely confident of my desires
At the time of action I'm often too afraid of the unknown that lies in front of me,
So one can only imagine when the unknown lies within me.
So I ask:
What does the future hold....
What to do...
Where to go...
How to act..
How to think?

Actually
Who is thinking?
These thoughts, to whom do they belong...?
Where do they come from?
Do I think them or are they formed elsewhere.
I just don't know anymore, not sure if I ever did.
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This war that I wage
this battle that I face..








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T4aM

Love,,,Investments...

Your love life is an investment — and the smarter the deals you execute, the savvier of an investor you become. Instead of navigating through an ambiguous investment in which you shower your lover with cash and prizes for existing, make sure he or she will demonstrate positive returns. Your love life should have a solid ROI.

http://elitedaily.com/life/the-20-mistakes-you-dont-want-to-make-in-your-20s/

World Views

I've been in many a debate, many an argument and many an intellectual tussle . And what have I gathered from all of these...? I have learned that you simply cannot convince someone to see the world the exact same way that you do, it seems nearly impossible.

The thing is, we all have a model of life, of the world, of each other and of ourselves. We each see things in our own way, this is because of our past experiences, our beliefs, our values and our principles. We each feel like the way we see the world is right because of this and i think that it is fair to say that we have the right to. It is extremely difficult, if not impossible to see the world as someone else does, unless of course you are them.

It is for this reason, that over time I have lost the urge to convince another or to enforce my ideas/ opinions/ideologies onto someone else. Cause I simply cannot, so now i try to understand people and strive to accept regardless. The conversation/argument is a whole lot easier when you sit back and give people a chance to explain themselves, you may even get to see the world in a different way and that's great. The point is that we shouldn't try and force our glasses onto others, but rather try and understand their glasses better. Because the truth of the matter is that at the end of the day we each see the same things, we just perceive it differently. So what we think about the world, doesn't really change what is actually there.



T4aM
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Value

We  seem to value ourselves by either how much money(external) we make or how much other people (external) value us.  So when these two measurement are not high, our self esteem and self value also depreciates.... quite sad. 

T4aM

Buddha

Nothing much to say. .. just sending a shout out to Siddartha.